Thursday, April 5, 2012

I will...

I will run again.

I have been thinking about it a lot the past couple days. I am tired of trying to be positive and tell people over and over and over... that I will just start hiking, biking, swimming and skiing. I say it all with a fake smile on my face because I am so tired of looking and feeling pathetic.

It is pathetic. It is pathetic, that at 32 years of age, I have to give up the one way of exercising that I truly loved.

So I won't.

This is not me just taking the advice of two skilled and knowledgeable doctors and throwing it out the window. I understand that I will be limited. That joint will forever be damaged, at-risk, and problematic. But I will be damned if I am going to go through the trouble of breaking my pelvis and re-setting it just to sit back on my ass and never do what really makes me happy.

Now I know... I won't be running be running 15-20 miles a week anymore but heck, I haven't in a long time already. I may not run even weekly but I will. When my hip is ready again. I will run... sometimes. ;)

I do want to (at some point-well into recovery) train for and finish a marathon. Just one. Call it a bucket list check off. I won't be breaking records and I may have to walk half of it but I am still going to do it.

I have decided that.

But in the meantime, I will give hiking, walking, biking, snowshoeing, and cross-country skiing a try, and who knows... I may end up trading my love. I will also buy a waterproof case & headphones and see if swimming will get back in the line-up.